Hello everyone! I know we are already a few weeks in, but I haven’t been able to bring myself to post. Since I feel this is a forum that is safe and understanding, I will share that I have had a recent incident with the library. Yes, the library. I’m sure this will be amusing to some of you and I can now write about it through the lens of retrospective humor. I had two VERY OVERDUE books. The hold-up on returning them was in part that one of them was nearly 600 pages. I don’t typically read very long books. Now I know why or at least in this case, it’s just not worth it. I desperately wanted to finish reading it, because I had kept it overdue so long and I did during the first week of the challenge. There was no conclusion. This was a book of a series. I thought at the very least it would end on some kind of closure. It did not. So much of it was long and drawn out and there were a good 200 pages I think that added little to no value to moving the story along. In the spirit of this blog, I am reminded that it is OK to detach from a book (in this case a series) that just seems to be eating at your time without enriching you. So I have said f*ck off to the rest of the series. I don’t care what happens. Anyway, back to the library fiasco. My anxiety about facing the librarians with these VERY OVERDUE books was insurmountable. I realize to a regular person this sounds silly, but I was absolutely terrified at the thought of having to answer to them. I spent a good three therapy sessions discussing it. I tried to convince both my boyfriend and my best friend to go in on my behalf. I thought about dropping the books in the bin after hours and mailing a $60 check (the fee they claimed I owed when they sent a letter to the house). I later found out that I would only pay a small fraction of that as long as the books were returned. They even cut off my library card from being able to borrow things digitally on the HOOPLA app, so I knew I needed to face them. I am happy to say that I am on a clean slate with the library as of YESTERDAY! YAY! I am kicking my habit of pulling out books I know I will not finish in time and exclusively using their digital services for the foreseeable future.
“The Lost Chapters: Finding Recovery and Renewal One Book at a Time” by Leslie Schwartz
“Dietland” (Audiobook) by Sarai Walker
“Little Women” by Louisa May Alcott (left over from last session)